Hi Lily and welcome to PT!!! I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I've lost 3 cats and it never gets any easier. PT is the best pet forum on the internet and most of people here are very friendly and wonderful people. All of my cats are rescues and I currently have Storm who is 15 1/2 years old, Sky who is 9 years old, Pearl who is 6 years old, Ziggy Stardust who is 5 years old, and twin brothers Alani & Blaze who are 1 year old.

When I lost my orange & white boy Sunny, it left a huge hole in my heart. I realized that I needed to adopt another male orangie but I knew he could never replace my RB Sunny. Well one turned into two and Alani & Blaze have really helped me to get over the loss of both Starr and Sunny. I hope that your landlord will let you have another cat to love and help heal your heart from your current loss. I hope you'll continue to post and enjoy your time here.