Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts, i think i am just panicking really, it is just that our country has been so unstable, and it is scarey, Auckland rarely gets earthquakes, and from the reports they are likely to stay small and not eventuate to anything, i sure hope they are right, Christchurch is coming along, but it is going to take a long time and lots of dollars, those poor people have been through enough, the other day i was searching facebook , i came across an old boyfriend of mine, we dated briefly when i was 20, he 22, and it did not end well,(he was a cheater) however i was gutted to read he lost his 25 yr old son in the Christchurch earthquake, so sad.any forgiving i had not done was done in an instant when i read that, so heartbreaking For him and his wife and daughter.