UPdate on Ellie-mae...

[katladyd]

I know you are doing the right thing! What we do out of love can never be wrong! I am sending up prayers that the angels will watch over Ellie-Mae during her procedure.

[carole]

Lizzie i have not heard of that drug, it might well be used here under a different name, however the steroids she is on are supposed to increase her appetite and sometimes they seem to work well, she eats like a horse some days and others not much, i guess because i have reduced them from 4 to 2 now, it is not working so well, and we have to keep in mind she has those two sore teeth to contend with on top of everything else.

She ate ok this morning, last night not so good but she scoffed down some biscuits, however she cannot chew those so just swallows those whole, but she prefers them to wet food sometimes, Ellie gets given whatever she can eat really, as we just have to make sure she eats, obviously with the help of the steroids and my continuous efforts to coax her to eat, it has paid off as she has stablised within 100grms, which i suspect she lost this last week due to the less eating from her extra sore mouth.

The vet is hoping to reduce her medication to 2 a day, as she is on a high dose, which long term is not good for her, such a catch 22 situation really, so many complications surrounding it all.

Last night i was having second thoughts about the surgery for the tumour, as she just seems so tiny and frail, it seems too much to put her through, i still wonder if she can cope with it, and me as well,my heart aches, wondering if i am doing what is best for her, poor wee thing has no say in it, i have to make the right decision for her.

I have played out every scenerio in my mind, what if this happens?etc etc, and that does not help.

you see initially i had decided against removal of the tumour because i felt it was too hard on her, and too many complications, the only thing that has changed is that she requires this dental,and it seems a better option to do it at the same time, and so she will only go under one time, and my vet seems to think it is the best option for her,but now i am doing exactly what i never intended to do, put her through so much,i had decided just to make sure she was comfortable as possible.

So you can see why i am wrestling in my mind with all of this,the best part is the fact that i may well have Ellie for longer and that is i guess the reason why i am doing this, please just pray no complications arise and Ellie will sail through it, she is tough ole girl, so that helps.

Forgive my prattling on , i just need to vent to those who understand so well, I just feel so torn and so unhappy, if all goes well and she makes a good recovery, then i will be happy again, i just cannot enjoy life at the moment until all of this is over and my baby girl is well again, thanks for listening and for putting up with me.

[phesina]

Oh, Carole, we are sending our biggest {{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} and ~~~~~~~PURRS~~~~~~~ to you and Ellie-mae both.

The love that you and Ellie-mae share shines through every word that you write. God bless you both, and may you both come through this big day in good form.

from Pat, Sydney, Poppy, Elmer, Sparkler, Lavinia, and Princess Poppaea Sabina Eugenia

[carole]

Aww you are so sweet Pat thanks for that, really cheered me reading that, your support is so appreciated as is everyone's that what i love about PT, everyone here either feels like i do or has at one time or another, and understands 100 per cent where i am coming from, and doesn't think i am just being a silly sausage.

[kuhio98]

Carole and Ellie-Mae ~ Keeping you both in our thoughts and prayers. I hope the White Coats can take care of your tooth owie. Naturally, I hope they can cure the cancer, but if it's not too be, at least she will be more comfortable.

Ellie-Mae sounds like a fighter. I hope she will be with you for many years.

[carole]

Thank you so much Lisa, it has been one horrible weekend, we had a holiday weekend here, i have just been in so much turmoil, hoping to heck i am doing the right thing by her, i feel it is so much to put the wee thing through,but i have to give her that chance i guess, she is on our bed sound asleep right now, looking very content,i feel so sorry for her knowing what tomorrow brings, she is so scared at the vets, just trembles,my heart is aching thinking about it all, and i feel sick with worry, however hopefully all will go really well, and Ellie will make a good recovery, and i will then be at peace .

Again thanks to everyone for their support,love and kindness, i so appreciate it.

Lisa i am so sorry i missed all what was going on with Halo, i have just read it and it brings me to tears, if anyone understands how i am feeling you certainly do, as do many others, that is why PT is such a comforting place to go and share, i am so sorry about Halo, you have had your heart broken more than you need to, HUGS,.I hope i can report good news back about Ellie, as i know she is special to you as you are to us.

[jennielynn1970]

Many healing thoughts and prayers going out to Ellie-Mae, and loving thoughts to you too, Carole. I hope things go well with the surgery.

Will be sending my thoughts and prayers to you, down under.