I don't come here as much as I should, so I just read your thread about Fern. Unhappily, I can commiserate with you, as my beloved Merlin went to the Bridge nearly 10 years ago through CRF. Sadly, there is no recovery; once the kidneys start to go, the loss cannot be reversed. I really feel for you because I've been where you are. Our only consolation, beside the memories, is the knowledge that Fern and Merlin are gloriously alive at the Bridge, absolutely healthy and unimaginably happy. Cry for yourself, but know that your tears are for you; your beloved Fern as no need of them, and will greet you joyously one day.

Until then, you have my most sincere sympathy; the depth of your pain shows the depth of your love. May Fern's Creator help you to find peace.