I realized there was no hope of saving my job when my ENT threw up his hands in November and said he was at a loss as to what else to do for me. I left that day feeling beaten and crying and I cried all that day. The next morning when I got up and was walking up the hall to make my coffee, I said to myself "You IDIOT! LET GO! LET GOD!" He has always taken care of me before and He will take care of me now so let HIM handle it and that is what I am doing.. Perhaps my time is up on the river because He has better plans for me, something else He wants me to do so I am over having pity parties for myself and looking forwards to what is ahead. I just have to stay afloat for 6 months, then I can officially retire (IF I have to)... then I can get on with whatever He has in his plans for me if I haven't already started with them(?).

I took 1/2 of one of those pills Dr Arriaga gave me last night at bedtime and I woke up this morning without a headache! YEA! I will continue taking them and see if they indeed get rid of the headaches without zonking me out.

I am sure I will cry when I get the official notification the job it terminated but again, I may not. It won't get me down because I have been expecting it and know it is coming and once better, IF i need to, I can do some trip work for other companies like I did before this one hired me....