Caramella's new video...

[Laura's Babies]

LOL! I asked her just this morning what it was God wanted me to do with her... keep her or find her a good home somewhere else.. Even Blaine is questioning rather I really want her adopted or not.. I do know this... Their adoption rules are to laxed, no checks with a vet or references.. I am not comfortable with that. I made her a promise, that she would always have a good home, be loved and never be mistreated..Sending her off with someone we know nothing about is breaking that promise in my book.

[krazyaboutkatz]

LOL! I asked her just this morning what it was God wanted me to do with her... keep her or find her a good home somewhere else.. Even Blaine is questioning rather I really want her adopted or not.. I do know this... Their adoption rules are to laxed, no checks with a vet or references.. I am not comfortable with that. I made her a promise, that she would always have a good home, be loved and never be mistreated..Sending her off with someone we know nothing about is breaking that promise in my book.

Laura, so does this mean that you're finally going to officially adopt her? I sure hope so.

[lvpets2002]

Aweee she has gotten so bigg.. Yup the roller ball wheel is always everybodies favorite.. She is for sure a Sweet Cutie Pie.. Huggss

[Laura's Babies]

Bob is my more wobbly CHer.. He might find Caramella a little too lively and active for his tastes!

I have noticed that Caramella can invade Any's space and Amy not get all huffy about it. I have seen her walk right up to Amy and they sniff nose to nose and go on their way. She can get as close to Amy as she wants, sometimes she gets growled at, sometimes not. Amy hardly lets anybody get near her.. Caramella can lay down and sleep just inches from her.... I find that fascinating..

OK folks, here's the deal. I promised Caramella yesterday, that if I don't go back to work, I will keep her, she will be MINE and this will be her forever home. She has been working on me overtime and I do believe she was a gift from God to get me through all this that I have been going through.

To update you on that.. My crew catches the boat next Wednesday. I will not be going back with them yet again. MY ENT has thrown up his hands and don't know what else to do with me and this thing I have just will NOT give up and go away.. I see a dizzy/balance doctor on Dec. 8 but go for about 5 hours of various test on Nov. 22. These appointments were made months ago, that is how booked up he is, these were the earliest appointment I could get. This doctor is my last hope and I have heard nothing but good things about him, that THIS is the doctor that will find what is causing all this and know what to do (IF anything can be done) to fix/help it.. MY symptoms keep evolving into different kinds of dizziness. Saturday it was whenever I stood up I got super dizzy and almost passed out TWICE! I have not ever felt like I was going to pass out during all of this but I came so close that it scared me really bad. I gave up trying to clean the house and laid on the sofa the rest of the day..

I am about at the end of my physical therapy and I have felt that I have went as far as I will with that for a month. I only have 7 more visits there.

I am also almost at the end of my short term disability, that runs out Dec. 11, on Dec 12, I go on long term and the day I go on long term, the company I work for has to terminate me so my job will be gone! December 12, I will be unemployed for the first time in over 30 years.... and I do not even see the dizzy doctor until Dec. 8 so there is no time for treatment or anything before I get terminated...

I don't know about medical insurance once I loose my job so I think I am fixing to get caught between a rock and a hard place. I know I can keep that under the cobra plan but then I will only be drawing 60% of my regular wages and I am betting Cobra will just about cost me all of that. .. then, I will have co pays, deductibles to meet and have to pay 20% of a lot of the stuff..

The only bright spot is in June, I will turn 65 and if I can hang on that long, I can get Medicare and social security..

[krazyaboutkatz]

Laura, I hope that everything will work out for you. Please take care. (((HUGS)))

[Laura's Babies]

This is all the end result of that darn sinus infection or that is what brought this forwards.. Maybe it has always been there and I just didn't have any symptoms.. I don't know. It is unbelievable how it has disrupted my life and for how long! Lights in the stores bother me big time, being in the dark throws me off big time, things you just wouldn't believe that throws everything off.. LOL! Just how did it all get so messed up?! I really think I am allergic to florescent lighting now, I sure react to it, get overwhelmed with nausea in the stores and have to get out of them asap. Who would have thought that? Being in the dark throws me so OFF! I am at the end of my rope with this and just want answers to what it is and how to get over it. I have tied that knot at the end of that rope and that doctor I see Dec. 8 is the end of that knot..

My babies are the only thing keeping me sane and grounded. They are the one constant in my life, the one joy..NO matter what kind of day I have, they are here ready to love me as I am and deliver to me all the pur therapy I can handle.