You have my utmost heartfelt sympathy at the loss of your beloved and precious furbaby Sam, you have come to a wonderful place here amongst people who really understand your pain and can help to comfort you through it all, i too lost my old boy Ash Feb 13th this year to kidney failure, it is hard and it just takes time, time does heal, but it never takes away your wonderful memories of your loving furbaby and friend, HUGS to you at this sad time and just grieve for your baby.