September 20th, 2010... the day my world crumbled apart..

**ramanth** · 09-30-2010, 07:56 AM

You are still in my thoughts Isabel. *HUGS*

**Lillycat** · 09-30-2010, 03:36 PM

sending positive vibes and strength to you to do what you need to move forward.....

**Husky_mom** · 09-30-2010, 04:06 PM

so far so good...

I admit I feel guilty as I haven´t allowed myself to cry.. really really cry... I´ve always been a tough gal.. but it seems I´ve got stuff to settle and that has kept me for let it loose...

I have thought as if it he were on a trip... daydreaming, I know.. but it kinda feels that way sometimes.. it just can´t be real.. just not yet...

yesterday we were out with my mom to pay the house and some other stuff.. I wasn´t crying at the time but needed a tissue.. I asked my kid, who was on the back, if he saw any tissue box or something back there.. he said in such a calmed way : "no... just the one you gave me when my dad died"... needless to say I choked right there and now needed more tissues..

and later that night.. he was playing with the phone as if people were calling and he was taking the calls and such.. he picked up the phone.. talked a bit.. then handed it over to me saying: "you´ve got a call.. it´s my dad calling you from heaven"... I broke down...

it´s really hard knowing he is not here and won´t be anymore.. I´ve said it many many times.. but it really is.. it´s awful...

I really appreciate all your kind words and prayers..

**gini** · 10-01-2010, 01:11 PM

Isabel, this is just a thought -I hope that Corinna has
gone to your husband and introduced herself.

Some prayers are being offered for you today - and go ahead and have a good cry whenever you feel like it. Grief is real - and your son will understand and it may help him too with his own feelings.

xxoo

**Catty1** · 10-01-2010, 01:41 PM

Isabel - if someone here or you can PM me your email address, there is something I would like to send you.

{{{hugs}}}

**DJFyrewolf36** · 10-01-2010, 04:15 PM

I am so sorry to hear this...It is awful that someone would do this to your family and then on top of it people being disrespectful.

*HUGS* and prayers sent your way. I wish I knew what else to say.

**Kirsten** · 10-02-2010, 10:42 AM

OMG, I didn't see this until now!! I have no words to tell you how sorry I am!!! You and your kids are in my thoughts. My heartfelt condolences to you and your family!!

(((HUGS)))

Kirsten