September 20th, 2010... the day my world crumbled apart..

**Scooter's Mom** · 09-29-2010, 08:40 PM

I just wanted you to know I'm still thinking of and praying for you all. Glad to hear the baby is doing well.

All my best,
Crystal

**carole** · 09-29-2010, 09:57 PM

Just wanted you to know i am also thinking of you, since reading your post i just cannot stop thinking about you and the terrible tragedy that has happened to you and your husbands family, life is so unfair, so unjust, please do let us know here at PT if we can help in any way, be it small or big, everyone here will bend over backwards to help in anyway they can, and yes you are loved by many here, and we all care about you and feel for you in this awful time in your life, i am so happy the baby is doing well,please take care of yourself too, i wish i could wave a magic wand and make it all go away for you with all my heart, blessings to you and everyone, thinking of you, lots of love from across the other side of the world.

**Reachoutrescue** · 09-30-2010, 02:21 AM

Isabel - just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you a lot and hope you and your babies are doing as best as you can. If there is anything we can do, please let us know. I am so very sorry again.....

Sending lots of prayers, love, and (((HUGS))) your way......

Tracy-

**Sonia59** · 09-30-2010, 02:46 AM

Still thinking about you and sending good thoughts for you and your family.

**ramanth** · 09-30-2010, 07:56 AM

You are still in my thoughts Isabel. *HUGS*

**Lillycat** · 09-30-2010, 03:36 PM

sending positive vibes and strength to you to do what you need to move forward.....

**Husky_mom** · 09-30-2010, 04:06 PM

so far so good...

I admit I feel guilty as I haven´t allowed myself to cry.. really really cry... I´ve always been a tough gal.. but it seems I´ve got stuff to settle and that has kept me for let it loose...

I have thought as if it he were on a trip... daydreaming, I know.. but it kinda feels that way sometimes.. it just can´t be real.. just not yet...

yesterday we were out with my mom to pay the house and some other stuff.. I wasn´t crying at the time but needed a tissue.. I asked my kid, who was on the back, if he saw any tissue box or something back there.. he said in such a calmed way : "no... just the one you gave me when my dad died"... needless to say I choked right there and now needed more tissues..

and later that night.. he was playing with the phone as if people were calling and he was taking the calls and such.. he picked up the phone.. talked a bit.. then handed it over to me saying: "you´ve got a call.. it´s my dad calling you from heaven"... I broke down...

it´s really hard knowing he is not here and won´t be anymore.. I´ve said it many many times.. but it really is.. it´s awful...

I really appreciate all your kind words and prayers..