Oh dearest Kirsten, i am so sorry you are dealing with this, i know how it feels to be in constant pain, and i am much older than you, it is not fair for one so young to have to deal with so much,i do hope you can find some pain relief that works for you and eases it for you soon.

Can you put the kitties in a cattery if necessary, although not the ideal choice i know, but maybe the only one ,i wish you luck with finding some nice people to help you out with your situation and fingers and paws all crossed you don't even have to go to hospital and that you can get well soon, take care and thinking of you, and yes i would be there if i could to, not only to help with your kitties but you as well,if only someone here on PT lived close by,if only.

Take care and HUGS.