Ash's time has come.....

[carole]

Ash passed very peacefully today, it was the hardest moment in my life, when i came home with him i felt an inner peace, but that did not last,again i feel sad and i feel empty like this huge hole left in my life,he is with me now in his little box, i have pics but just not up to posting at the moment,he looks very cute and at peace, hubby has dug a hole under the bush in the garden and we shall bury him tomorrow, just one more night with my sweet boy, i give him pats and talk to him, i know he cannot hear me no more, but it helps me with my grief.

We had to go out to get some things from the supermarket and coming home was so sad, he was always there to greet us, it just isn't the same without Ash.

One thing that did make me smile was Ellie, when steve had dug Ashes grave, she goes over there has a sniff and pops inside it sitting up, i took a pic of her on my mobile, as it was so cute, i told her you don't want to be going in there sweetie.

He only weighed 3.7 kilos at the vets, this was my big fella who used to weigh 6.7 kilos, he was just wasting away.

It has been a very tough day, i am emotionally drained, think i will have an early night, thanks again everyone, and i tell you all the way in the car to the vets i was finding it so hard, i just kept saying to myself all your PT friends are with you, be strong, and it helped me to compose myself, i was scaring Ash i think, and i just had to stop for his sake.

Goodnight all from me and Aships a brave kitty to the end.

One last thing if anyone could make me a memoriam up i would be ever so grateful,just a pic of him with some nice words,something i can keep for my treasured memories.

[cassiesmom]

Carole, I am thinking and praying for you today. (((HUGS))) --- elyse