Yes it is a difficult day indeed, i think having three days to think about it, only makes it worse, i have gone through it in my head so many times,how it will be etc, etc,wish i could think about something else, but i cannot.

He is under the car at the moment, that is where he goes now, i guess he likes it there because i cannot bother him anymore, he just wants to be left in peace, and i don't blame him, i have been trying to offer him food continuously all day in the hope he will eat, and he gets fed up of it, but i just can't give up on him, i know he has given up, and i almost feel the same way, but i just have to keep trying without infringing on his need to be left alone, but is a tad hard to do that.