Ash's time has come.....

[carole]

Thank you, i know i have made the right call now, it has been going on in my mind, should I , should I not, but I know it is time to let my ole guy go peacefully,he deserves to leave earth in peace and with dignity, and that is the way i want it to be.

I am going to find it so weird without him, he has taken up so much of my time, looking after him, time that i had, and gave with love,it is hard looking after a terminally ill kitty,such a rollercoaster ride, and full of emotions,sadness, anger,impatience , you name it, i have felt it,but i don't regret one bit of it, and I am gonna miss him so much, thank goodness i have three other furbabies to help me through it all,and of course all my dear PT friends,my husband Steve who has helped me with everything.,and been there when i have needed a shoulder to cry on.,guess i am going to be needing his shoulder big time on Saturday.

Slick i understand exactly what you are saying, yes i too see that his spirit has broken, he has given up,and i have no qualms about my decision now, and that makes it just a little more bearable, yes i have cried buckets already, i went for my shower and howled and howled, i had to stop i was feeling dizzy,but there are still more to come for sure, but hopefully when he has passed i will get peace too, i am sure i will,I have to say Slick i am so sorry you lost Max, i somehow missed that thread, i knew he was not doing well, and had been responding to you, but somehow i missed that, i feel awful, please accept my condolences, i know how much it has hurt you, and it is still very painful for you, HUGS to you and healing times ahead.

People who do not know the love of animals, are so missing out, i look at my little furbabies and it amazes me how we humans can love them so much, but hey how could we not,those who don't are missing out big time in their lives for sure.

But then comes this time and it hurts like you know what,but even so i would not have missed out on all those ten years or so of experiencing that love with my Ash.

I found this on Tanyas UK feline chronic renal failure site, it sums it up so well for me.

"We who choose to surround ourselves with lives

even more temporary than our own

live within a fragile circle,

easily and often breached.

Unable to accept its awful gaps, we still would live no other way.

We cherish memory as the only certain immortality,

never fully understanding the necessary plan."

Irving Townsend "The Once Again Prince"