Done Slick, yep i am all for that too, it is about the quality and up to now Ash has had that, i just was not prepared for such a sudden decline, like in three days, although i have been prepared for almost 19mths now, it is still hard when the time comes..it came upon me so suddenly.

I know for one thing, Ash has had a good life with us,from being a dumped stray,and lived a lot longer than a lot of kitties, so that brings me comfort,even though it is only a little right now.

I am wondering how Lexie will be, she loved Ash, although he would not have a bar of it,he still had a bond with her,even if it was I am the boss and you better do as you are told, he never took to Nikki and Ellie, but then he has been with Lexie for over 8 yrs, and only 4 with the other two girls, i am sure in her own wee way Lexie will miss him too.

Thanks Karen, it is so good to be able to talk with everyone here how i am feeling, means so much, i have not told Melissa yet, she is not here at the moment, but i had a chat with her last night, she still felt he would be ok and i guess she has seen him do that many times before, but i know she probably just does not want to accept that he is going.