Thank you. your kind and understanding words do bring me comfort, i had wondered whether to post now or after he went, but i knew in my heart i needed the love and support from you all, so i am glad i did post this thread now.

I am not sure Ash will make it to Saturday, i think i may well have to take him tomorrow,I am finding this very distressing,but i do know i have made the right decision, although the thought still nags at you all the same, but yes it would be cruel for me to let him linger on, and he would be suffering.

I think this is the hardest part and the day i take him, afterwards i probably will find the peace i need,so until then i just have to remember i am doing this because i love him so much.