Thank you for your kind words candace, I still am holding on to a bit of hope as you do, but i can see he has given up the battle, and i guess that is his way of telling me enough now mum, let me go,well i have to tell myself that anyhow,if only to help me feel a little better.

I am so dreading this weekend, it is gonna be so darn hard.

Could you please crosspost it for me, i have no idea how, and cannot think quite straight right now.

This is going to be very hard on my Melissa too, she adores Ash, they have quite a special bond, he has never ever scratched her, me plenty of times, and she was the one who brought him to me when she was about 8 yrs old,thanks to her and Ash i discovered i could tolerate kitties, even though i have an allergy to them, had missed out on the love of kitties for many years until Ash arrived and the rest his history.

She thinks he can keep going, but i know he can't.