I'm sorry that you couldn't be w/Lucky when he went to the Rainbow Bridge but he knew how loved he was and he truly was a lucky boy to have been found and cared for by you and Deb all those years. It isn't ridiculous at all to mourn your cat. All of us here on Pet Talk have been there. It's painful but to go w/out their companionship would be even more painful. I know that Lucky is looking down on you, waiting for the day when you all will be together again. RIP, sweet Lucky and peace to your humans.