I am a diabetic

[Freedom]

have been cutting out soda entirely

You can have Diet Soda. You may not like the taste of it, but you can have it.

My Dad was diagnosed with Type 2 at the age of 68; 15 years ago. Once he came to live with me, I had to learn about it. We took the DOE class -- THREE TIMES! DOE = Diabetes Outpatient Education. Your insurance may cover it; Medicare does cover it.

You attend, and one person who helps you with meals, support etc can attend for no charge. It was all too much for Dad, but helped me tons to learn how to prepare his meals.

We both attended classes at the local YMCA for 5 years (until Dad was no longer able to do it due to other health issues, mainly the dementia).

There are also diabetes support groups, we attended one at the local senior center.

So depending what sort of "helps" work for you, they are out there! Seek them out, give them a try.

Best wishes.