Gayle i wish you all the very best, and hope that your move will indeed be a good one for you and all will go well, you have been through some tough times and I can only hope for you to have a very happy ,content and safe life from now on.

Remember it is perfectly normal to grieve for something you have lost, even if it wasn't how it should be, it is what you knew and i am sure there were plenty of good times as well, but the bad times usually outweigh the good,just take each day as it comes, and know that in time you will feel happy again and secure within yourself.
Rose reading your post brought tears to my eyes, i can feel and understand you pain also, just know we are all here for you both and thinking of you and extremely proud of you both, HUGS to both of you.