Where I'm at now...something positive

[Queen of Poop]

I am going back to work today. It's 5:45 am and I am pretty much ready to leave. Way too early. I am hoping Cali and Diego will be ok their first day in the apartment by themselves. I am hoping I can get thru the day without breaking down. Right now I could just throw up. I just want to go curl back up in bed.

When my alarm went off Diego came and crawled under the covers, right against my chest/tummy and purred. At that moment I felt so much love. Such a good boy.

[Queen of Poop]

See the counsellor tomorrow at 11:45.

I have to stop being on the verge of tears all the time.

[dukedogsmom]

I've been where you are now. When I lost Duke, I about had a nervous breakdown. But I didn't seek counseling, which was stupid. I hope it helps you. I wish for you great strength for today. You've got a lot of support here to help you.

[Moesha]

You have been through a lot and are dealing with so many different things. Right now it is natural to be on the verge of tears all the time. I hope that the counseling will help you to deal with everything and help you move past this difficult time. Many thoughts of comfort and support being sent your way.

[emily_the_spoiled]

I am glad that you made this decision. Remember it took you awhile to reach this point to leave, so please do not expect your feelings to "be gone" right away. It will take awhile to work through everything (even with help). But Catty1 has a good idea, unfortunately there are plenty of other people who have been (or are in) a similar situation, so it might be helpful to talk with them.

Gentle hugs and curl up with the furry ones when you get home tonight...

[Medusa]

Counseling will help you to relieve yourself of all the things that need saying, if nothing else but, hopefully, you'll find a counselor who will do more than just listen. Whatever the case may be, know that every day you're a little bit closer to getting better.

[Queen of Poop]

Ok, I'm really proud of myself. I went after work today and bought a tv and cable box. I've never been allowed to set them up before so was quite intimidated by the whole thing. But guess what!!!! I did it!!! I am now watching tv, it all works. I did it all by myself!!! This is just the positive thing I needed to happen. If I can do this on my own, what's next.

Anyways I think in my lack of sleep mind I've gone just goofy and the sadness can only return. But right now I'm relishing in my success.