Johanna - my recent assessment comfirmed a reason behind my erratic job history. Yes, I am accountable, and now it means acknowledging the facts of my strengths and workarounds and techniques for areas not so strong.

It wasn't until Feb 2007 that I was dx'd with ADD Inattentive Type. My recent testing - very thorough and not covered by our health plan here - gave a bit more detail. My capacity is greater than average, but tempered by 'weakness in the memory system' which creates a steady pinhole leak in that capacity tank. Also, had the test results been available when I was in the earlier grades of school, I would have been called Gifted and received support for the areas that got in the way of my potential.

I didn't want to mention this specifically in my first post, since a lot of people don't "believe" in illnesses like this.

Office work that involves multi-tasking and high pressure deadlines is not for me. However, this Humane Society job has a lot of duties that can be broken down into 'chunks'. I also remembered today that I do well at a job that has a 'cause', that has meaning. And being a part of humane treatment and care of animals certainly fits that.

I just get scared because I have failed in so many jobs - about 10 in the last 9 years.

I have learned, however, to make more informed choices and not just go after the almighty buck.

Thanks for posting, folks.

ETA: Gayle, I have no worries about 40 lbs. It's likely dog food/litter, and I'll use the drag-heave technique!