I just can't believe this...panic in gut UPDATE: #22; finally an email

[Catty1]

Wee update - friend who knows N took all the suitcases today and one blue bin, and they are all locked in his garage.

My mom said I should get the computer out of there! (N's computer).

I also just remembered his home theatre is here (minus huge screen).

I'm not there yet...but wonder if I should try and sell some of this to get some money back?

Not sure I would get much for it.

Anyway, today is ok. Still no word from him...and all the stuff he left here - clothes etc.

I just might put in another missing persons report tomorrow. This is insane.

[carole]

Candace your trip sounds wonderful, i would love to visit Canada one day, it is so pretty, just you go and ENJOY yourself girl and try and forget about N,he is old enough to sort himself out, but i know one worries all the same, take care now.

[Catty1]

My FaceBook Horoscope was really interesting for today! (I DO have to look into a money matter that could be a bit nasty, though not fatal!)

At some point during the day, Cancer, your attention will shift away from money matters. This shift may be due to a sense of relief, which could very well come from a sudden or brilliant solution to a problem you've been having with someone. Sometimes we can see that a big problem can be resolved by a little adjustment, but we just can't figure out what the adjustment is. Today is one of those days on which you figure it out. Also, a misunderstanding with a friend will be clarified, much to your relief, because it may have looked like things were headed in a really bad direction between you.

I don't take it as written in stone...but this happens to be spot-on for possibilties.

[Catty1]

An email! I will post the one I sent August 29th, and his reply just now, today, September 2nd.

Hi, N:

I miss you and hope you come home.

If we need to make a decision, let's talk. If you want, we can meet with Harry or Greg[chaplain/priest].

It's been a hard go the last little while. I get very uptight about finances - one of my defects - and I am sorry I took that out on you. You are doing and have been doing your very best to get on your feet, and have done a great job. You have really stuck to it, and I do admire you for that.

As for my trip - the cats have been set up at a boarding kennel.

If you are definitely not coming back, and you find a place to stay here or in the city, let's please arrange to move your stuff before I leave so I can have an extra set of keys for someone.

I love you.

Hi there, I love you too.

However, I need to work some stuff out right now. I missed my kids very much as you know. I had to see them.

As far as everything else goes, I apologize. It's been rough all around.

I need you to stop contacting all my friends and acquaintances. That almost sounds like stalking lol.

As for any, all and sundry monies owing, I can only transfer $1000 at a time. You know that, it's the way the system works.

...I was sure I signed the check, but I probably did the same thing as D.[an employer who goofed the same way]

I'm looking for suitable full time employment or training. Turns out there's training coming available for Bookkeeping and LPN. Imagine, me, a nurse. How cool is that?

Not much else I can say for now. I heard from B.[buddy where his clothes are stored]

Talk to you later.
Norm

Hi, Norm:

I am so very glad to hear from you. I just didn't know what was going on. L didn't mention you gonig to see your kids. I hope you had a good visit.

I wanted to work things out, Norm. Even if you stayed somewhere else in town - and we met.

Should I not change the lock on this door? The cats will be boarded while I am away. But with you seeming to totally disappear and leaving all your stuff here, I was making decisions on my own without your input, and I figured you were not coming back at all.

I never cared if you had just part time or full time...I understand your rush to make a lot of money quickly - I really do! (been there!) You and I could only contribute what we could. It's a beginning.

My "fraud" comment - I apologize. With no contact from you, you admitting to spending all Friday night in a casino, and your card playing online (which, yes, L told me was start of a gambling problem, which has apparently been the toughest for you to kick) - forgetting to sign a check can happen to anyone. But in this context, I hope you understand why I got frightened.

Are you in [city] right now?

I love you. But let's communicate when we can...

HUGS

Candace

PS Am not trying to stalk you...just trying to hear from you. Leaving decisions all up to my alcoholic mind is not the best idea! lol

[Medusa]

Candace, this has me concerned on several levels and perhaps I should keep my mouth shut but since you felt ok w/posting your back-and-forth emails to each other, I feel ok w/commenting.

He told you to stop contacting all his friends and family members yet it's ok for him to get angry and disappear for a few days? If he needs to work some things out, as he stated, then he should've said that BEFORE he left, not after.

Owing money is never good. Makes me very nervous. Not signing the check? Makes me equally as nervous.

You asking if you should not change the lock on the door: not an option I'd give someone who first ran roughshod over your feelings, then totally disregarded them, then scolded you for contacting people because you were worried about him.

Gambling? Yes, I know he's in a program and people do backslide. I'm not judging, just saying that if you're sharing money and/or expenses, you could find yourself in the poor house very quickly and judging from his previous responses to you, he's liable to turn it on you saying that you knew all along that he had a gambling problem.

Candace, I know only too well what it's like to be in a relationship w/someone who has addiction problems. This isn't a judgment of Norm; I'm not that smug, but my antennae went up and stayed up when you first said he was missing in action and he seems awfully callous in regards to your feelings in all this. I care about you, even though we've never met in person. I know that you have a good heart. I just hope and pray that you're not an easy mark. Please take this post in the spirit in which it was written, w/love. I didn't PM you because you've bared your soul for everyone to see and this situation is more or less an open book, so I apologize in advance if you had preferred that I had PM'd you instead. I guess I'm hoping that others will concur w/what I said.

[Moesha]

I am sure that hearing from him calmed that "panic in gut" feeling. And I am glad you received a response finally. Honestly though, the response he gave really concerned me as well. I couldn't believe you asked him about changing the locks either. I really hope you know what you are doing. We are here to support you. Please understand that and know that people here really care.

[Catty1]

Hi, Guys.

Yeah, my reply to him was immediate and rambling. The locks thing was silly!

I'll mail him his hard drive - and I WILL sell his computer and home theatre system!

Just had a really good talk with Greg...and he didn't like the tone of N's reply - basically blaming me for everything, in a passive way.

I will go to the bank in person ASAP and see if they can do more than transfer $1,000 at a time. I am picking up the unsigned check tomorrow.

Looking for full time and maybe education? He was doing that here. woo hoo...

Something that takes addicts a while to acquire, if they ever do, is accountability - that their actions have the power to hurt people. They think it is all THEIR problem, and affects no one else.

Still will change the locks. Wish the guy would call!

I'll go buy one and do it myself!

THANK YOU GUYS.

Candace