Ann,
I'm very sorry for your loss...it's so hard to lose someone you love so dearly. I'm sure your grandpa was a very special guy.

Your grandma and father may have done the right thing in keeping you away in those final moments. Five years ago, I lost my beloved grandmother. The last time I saw her, was her lifeless body in the hospital room. It was horrible, it supersedes many of the memories I have her, which is very sad to me.

I'm here if you need to talk...talking will help...and we are all here.

Take care.
Kelly