Dear Ann , My sincere condolences on the loss of your beloved grandpa ! I can fully understand how devastated you are feeling about not having been there when your grandpa passed away ... ! I am still blaming myself for not having been there when my sweetheart Sydney left for the RB ... I know , I know , some will say , that was ONLY a cat ... and that I cannot compare that .. .
But to me , it is the same thing !! If it is about a beloved pet or person , the grief is the same for me . I am sure you do agree with me here , Ann .
It makes me happy that you were able to keep little Kattja(lovely name !!) , and pull her through her awfull start in this world . She will be gratefull to you foreven and ever , that is a certainty !!!

If you need more venting , feel free to post here or send a PM ; we are one big family ; we are there to comfort each other in good AND bad days !!