I am so sorry to hear about the loss of you grandpa. I know exactly how you feel...you see I just lost my grandma May 7 of this year. It feels so terrible. The weird part is knowing that you wont see them again. Sometimes I forget. For example at my High School graduation that was two months later, I almost bought five tickets instead of four. I know it's going to be strange this Christmas when I don't get a cute card from her and a funny gift. I also agree that funerals are weird. I really hate them . To me it just rubs it in more and make me feel worse.

But try not to be too down you will start to feel better soon and don't feel to bad about not saying goodbye(I didn't either) I am sure you Grandpa hears you from heaven and knows you said goodbye in your heart.

Feel better soon,

Diana