I am afraid I am slipping into a severe depression. This is the first time I have actually admitted it. I am feeling totally desperate about the fact that I have not found a job and can't pay my bills. My unemployment runs out end of May and I am so scared, and I'm barely surviving on that. I can barely by food, and I can't afford my medication. Sometimes, I have to decide what I need - food, or medication. I am so scared... I don't know what to do. I have very little motivation and I basically feel housebound because I can't afford to do anything - not even drive because I'm scared to run out of gas in my car. Tilly and Nutmeg are still ok, as I always make sure I get food for them to eat. I just want to find a job and I am noticing that even the jobs that I could apply for are dwindling. I am not sleeping, I'm not eating properly.. I feel like my life is in shambles.