Dear Ann,
If you are in school then you are a lot younger than I, but we have something in common. I just attended the funeral of my BEST friend, yesterday. And I too, am crying my eyes out. Just as you, I know that they are in a better place, but we are here and it hurts very much. My friend was only 41 and I did not get to say good bye either and it is hard to imagine the feeling of never seeing them again. Your little kitty and your website project are good diversions to try to keep going forward, but never feel guilty about just sitting and letting all your feelings out. I don't!!! take care.