I don't try and get my dads attention. I've given up on that. Its over, its done, I lost. He's got his wife, she's completely turned him around, and is trying to brainwash the rest of the family.

As far as dan, its not a game. I know you won't believe me, regardless of what I say. Dan is the first person I've cared about this deeply in a long time. I'm not going to deny that part of it is about being needed, but I really do love him. If he "caved" and decided he loved me, I would be so happy. I'm trying to get over dan, but its easier said than done.

I respect your opinion, but I need to do what I feel is right.