Kinda nervous about tomorrow

[Cincy'sMom]

Good luck tomorrow!

[caseysmom]

You'll do fine...wear a twilight tshirt

[krazyaboutkatz]

Jenn, I hope that everything goes well tomorrow. I'm sure it will. Good luck.

[jazzcat]

Good luck!

[beeniesmom]

So, how did it go?

[jennielynn1970]

I had a panic attack...

[caseysmom]

I had a panic attack...

Oh I am sorry, I hope your feeling better now.

[Medusa]

Oh Jennie, I'm sorry. How can I help?

[Catty1]

Oh, Jenn...

How about applying at a private school?

What do you need? What can I do?

{{{{hugs}}}}}

[jennielynn1970]

I don't know what to do. I freaked out before I even left. I couldn't get out the door, I couldn't leave the house. I just started hyperventilating, throwing up, my head was just pounding. I was awake most of the night, that didn't help. My ambien didn't do anything to allow me to sleep.

I feel like such a wimp. I'm not a wimp, really I'm not. I just couldn't calm down. I kept getting racing thoughts in my brain and that was just it, it just incapacitated me.

I think part of it is also I miss just having someone here to lean on, just to be an emotional support. I just feel alone. I miss getting that hug, that kiss, before going out the door. If my ex wasn't good for much, he at least did that, lol.

[jazzcat]

I'm so sorry. (((HUGS)))

[Hellow]

I don't know what to do. I freaked out before I even left. I couldn't get out the door, I couldn't leave the house. I just started hyperventilating, throwing up, my head was just pounding. I was awake most of the night, that didn't help. My ambien didn't do anything to allow me to sleep.

I feel like such a wimp. I'm not a wimp, really I'm not. I just couldn't calm down. I kept getting racing thoughts in my brain and that was just it, it just incapacitated me.

I think part of it is also I miss just having someone here to lean on, just to be an emotional support. I just feel alone. I miss getting that hug, that kiss, before going out the door. If my ex wasn't good for much, he at least did that, lol.

Whenever I start acting like you describe, I generally just try to focus on a single thing or a few things, and allow that to prevail above the other, random thoughts going through my mind. Breathing slow and deep helps too. My mind must work /way/ differently than other people's.

I know how all that feels. Although your panic attacks are probably worse than what I experience, I have asthma, and after long excersise runs, I feel literally like a fish out of water. Somehow, I force myself to concentrate on breathing slow and deep, and the asthma attack stops. Hoping you get better, and if you ever need me, I am /literally/ always in the chat .

[Nomilynn]

When tomorrow comes, focus on your hug, because I was giving you one I guess I just need to virtually squeeze harder

[Daisy and Delilah]

Jennie, I am so sorry. Please don't consider this as something you're doing wrong and make yourself feel worse.
I think you're at a point in your life where it's time for a change. There's something in your former situation that's paralyzing you. Making you freeze up at the thought of going back into it. Like Reggie said, "You're feeling like a fish out of water emotionally". You may be at a turning point. Things will eventually fall into place.

It sounds like you may need more time off to get focused and into the right direction. Don't feel bad about needing more time. You have to take care of yourself. You are number one!!!

Relax and feel better. Please PM me anytime.

Terry
{{{{{HUGS}}}}} We can give you a PT virtual group hug.

[phesina]

Oh Jenn... I'm sending big hugs and the kitties are all digitally weaving in and out around your legs as their versions of big hugs.