I doubt that there's a person here on PT who doesn't understand how you're feeling because we've all at one time or another lost one of our beloved fur kids. Prayers are going up for you that you'll now be able to release the pain and be comforted by only the good memories. Silver wants that for you; she doesn't want you to grieve endlessly for her. She knows that it was painful for you to let her go but you did the last act of kindness for her that you could and because of it, she's pain free and at peace. Here's wishing you that same peace in your heart.