Thanx, Jen, I appreciate the encouraging words a lot. You've been a good friend through all of this, all of you have. I'll admit to having a weak moment when I posted this. I was so shocked when I saw her pee like that. She's never done that; she's always been the model cat. The only time she's ever peed outside the box is when she's had a URI and she just went off Zenaquin for a URI, so I doubt that's it. If this was all she was doing, it might be different but the constant sitting on the countertop or sleeping under my bed, not socializing, all of it, it's just too much. It's breaking my heart. I don't want this to be about me; it's about Puddy. I just cannot fathom having her PTS for inappropriate peeing. I've got to have confirmation that she is indeed miserable and doesn't want to go on. Yet, I roasted a chicken w/stuffing for dinner and I took some white meat w/a little broth on it to her and she scurried down those little steps so fast, I could hardly believe it. And she ate almost all of the chicken. That tells me that she still has the will to live.

Clomicalm is for behavior problems, inappropriate urinating being one of them. I just want to be sure that it won't hurt her, given all of her other problems. I'm just sick at heart right now. I cooked that dinner and can't eat any of it. All I do is cry. I've had pets all my life and if I need to have her PTS, this won't be the first time I've done it but it would be the first time that I'll feel that a part of my soul has died, too. I've never loved an animal the way I love Puddy.