Donna I have tears in my eyes reading your post, i really feel for you so much,you have a heart of gold and that is where you're problem lies, but DON'T you ever go changing that, because that is what makes you the very special person that you are, a person i genuinely love and care about.

I am sure your'e friend mean't well and was not being horrible, but he really does not understand the magnitude of what he is saying does he?

How could you possibly make that choice, and i know you are just feeling very overwhelmed by everything right now, and that is when we sometimes make hasty decisions we later regret, i know you will not be doing that.

I can only wish things improve for you and that the light at the end of the tunnel shines through on you as brightly as it can.

Take care my friend and remember we are all here for you,HUGS.