Sassy

[Alysser]

Wow, it's been over 2 months since you left me.

The words "it was for the best.." and whatever else people say to comfort you are getting old. Maybe that's true, but why does it still feel like I could have done more to save you? I am just sick of feeling sorry for myself when I know I should feel sorry for you. Today was a horrible day for me, I could hardly focus on anything at work, maybe that's why I was in such a horrible mood. People keep saying you're in heaven, that's great and all but YOU'RE NOT here with ME. You shouldn't have died so young, it wasn't fair. Baby, I'm so sorry. I STILL miss you! The worst part is no one really understands this feeling. I don't like talking about it with anyone. It just doesn't feel right.

I know, I sound so selfish, but I can't help it. Living without a dog is like living in hell, honestly. I can't wait till I move out so I can get one.

love you sas,

mommy

I think this guy knows how I feel-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-86nvBVjaY