What a horrible morning. So I called my vet this morning to talk about starting the chemo Friday if at all possible. My vet told me she needed to talk to the vet in Auburn first before she will order the chemo medication - and here is the catch, she told me I have to order the ENTIRE 6 mnths worth of chemo protocal and pay the total amount for the entire protocol up front. Here is my problem with this, Sydney looks like she is dying, and being completely aware of the severity of the situation, I know that she may not live through the entire 6 month protocol. So basically if she dies during the first administration of chemo, I am responsible for the 6 months of drugs. I told my vet to call me back when she was done talking with the Auburn vet. So my vet called me back an hour later and said that the Auburn vet said to start the chemo ASAP, and then my vet tells me that she has some EXPIRED chemo drugs she can use at a discounted price (only $600 off the $4500 price) if I am interested. I am not a pharmacist but I know that medications have expiration dates because of their prospective shelf life. With drugs like chemo, being extremely sensitive to temperature and storage, the drugs she was trying to give me, which were 18 mnths past the expiration date, could very well be ineffective. I called the vet in Auburn and got her opinion and I ended up finding a new vet. I hate to do this to Sydney when she is so sick and vulnerable but I just don't feel that she is getting the care she deserves. Anyways, I have a 2:30 appointment with the new vet that quoted having an interest in feline oncology. Another issue I had is that my vet had me pay $300 for an ultrasound when she wasnt qualified to even read it - her results where that sydney's liver looked funny, when the specialist in Auburn found a destinct mass on Sydney's kidney. Just like in human medicine, you would never have a family care physician perform surgery, so why did she charge me for a service that she wasnt trained for? Sydney is going to have a repeat ultrasound done 5 weeks after she has started chemo (we are starting her monday hopefully), and this new vet clinic has a trained specialist for reading ultrasounds. I just pray that this change in vets is in Sydney's best interest. I am very exhausted, mentally and emotionally, and this is really starting to wear on me. Please continue to pray for us.