Sweetie you know i would never ever judge you, everyone makes mistakes, as long as you keep learning from them, that is what counts, i can only say count yourself lucky sweetie, that you found out this before it went any further, i am sorry you got hurt and are hurting,in time you will get over it and move on, you are a strong girl, a young woman with a very loving heart,don't be down on yourself,you have had a lucky escape, you take care now .