Quote Originally Posted by Barbara
While I can understand how difficult it is to live with Ally I have to say that I feel irritated- to put it mildly- by someone who attributes to a cat characteristics like "nastiness" and "evil hatred".

I am absolutely convinced that I would attribute these words to very few humans in the world and definitely not to an animal. It is an anthropomorphism of the worst kind.
I must say that I'm in agreement w/this statement. That isn't to say that what you're experiencing isn't heart wrenching. I know that it is. If you haven't tried Prozac yet, you might want to give it a whirl. And everyone on PT knows my good experience w/Clomicalm. It does NOT drug my cats in any way and does not change their personalities for the worse. For whatever reason/s, if those options are not available to you, you may have to help Ally to the bridge.

Just one more thought: years ago I wanted to rescue dogs as well as cats. I took in a dog that showed up on my doorstep on Thanksgiving Day. She was absolutely beautiful and I thought that she would be easy to place. Well, I was wrong. She attacked me twice, once to the point where I had to run to my car and lock myself in, honk the horn til my son heard it and he came and rescued me from her. She was on the hood of my car, growling at me through the windshield, showing me every tooth in her mouth and her eyes were wild. Later that evening, she put her head in my lap as though nothing had occurred earlier, only to attack me again in a split second, this time grabbing hold of my ear. I worried that she would attack my friends or worse, their small children, so I called my vet w/my concerns. He examined her and showed me her teeth, which were pitted. He said that pitted teeth can possibly be caused by distemper and, if a dog lives through it, it can make them crazy, sort of schizophrenic. He said "This dog is miserable, Mary, and the kindest thing you can do is to put her to sleep." I did not want to do that but once he told me that she was miserable, that was enough for me.

The reason I mention this is because Ally may have some disease or disorder causing her to behave in such a manner that she frightens you as she does. If this is the case, perhaps the kindest thing that you can do for her is to help her find peace by escorting her to the Bridge. I apologize if it appears that I was trying to hijack your thread. That truly wasn't my intention. But I, too, do not believe that a cat or any animal is evil. Those are traits that, in my humble opinion, should be reserved for the human species and sparingly at that.

Bless you for trying your best w/Ally and for having the guts to stick it out this long. Whatever you decide, we're w/ya.