Thanks for the outpouring suppots. They mean a lot to me.
I did tell my husband, and I feel better about it now that I have him to share my worries with. The reason I hesitated to tell him was because about this same time last year, his mother was diagnose with breast cancer. She also found a lump which turned out to be malignant. She had to have to mastectomy & chemo... Thanks goodness her cancer is now in remission, but it did give everybody a scare, and changed a lots of things on its way.
Because of that, to my husband, having a lump is equal with having cancer... I now not only have to convince myself that the lump's probably benign, I have to convince hubby, too.
As for me, I'm doing fine. The way I see it, I have no choice but to wait until Dec 28th for my mammogram, but I do have a choice to be happy or unhappy from now until then, and I choose to be happy . Of course ever since I found the lump, I've been very worried, but everywhere I go, I hear joyful Christmas songs, bright & beautiful decorations, and I'm reminded that Advent is a time to be joyful, not sad - hopeful, not despair.. Therefore, when dark clouds loom over my head, I chase them away with prayers.
God is my strengh & my hope right now, as I realize there is nothing I can do, or undo that will change the outcome of things. I'll just have to wait to find out what He's planned for my life. Of course, I prayed that it won't be anything malignant - but I can't help but asking myself what I would do in case it would be. All I can do now is to prepare myself for the worst, so if it is, at least I'm prepared. If it's not, then I'll be the happiest person on the entire universe
Please continue to pray for me. Pretty please? I'm sure God hears our prayers.
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