Please keep me in your thoughts & prayers..

**M&M's Mommy** · 12-10-2007, 02:30 PM

Thanks for all your supports, good thoughts & prayers. I believe in the power of prayers (of course, I'll do all I can by going to the doctor, seeking treatment if needed, etc..) - but that God is the ultimate healer.

I'm doing okay. I cannot get a mammogram until Jan 02, 08. (The insurance company authorized for me to go to this particular Imaging center for the test, and it's completely booked up until then). I was able to schedule for the breast ultrasound tomorrow though - so I'm preparing myself for that. I guess I hope and I pray that it'll turn out to be nothing - but I still prepare myself for the worst, so that I won't be totally surprised, should it happens. Then based on the result from the ultrasound, they'll decide if they'll need to move my mammogram schedule to an ealier date or not.

There were times I was consumed with bad thoughts & bad feelings, but most of the times I'm fine and just go about my normal life like usual.

I still need to figure out the way to tell my husband so that it doesn't shock him and bring too much sadness & worries to him. Last year, his mom also found a lump in her breast, which turned out to be maglinant, so to my husband, a lump means cancer. My husband knew that I went to see the doctor, and that he ordered a mammogram & ultrasound - but he thoughts those are routine preventative tests that I'll need to take yearly starting now (I just turned 35!). He didn't know about the lump

I did try to hint to him, but he didn't take it too well so I stopped. I guess I'll tell him tomorrow, after the ultrasound. He's taking times off from work to go with me, for moral support - so it's all good.

Christmas & our wedding anniversary (Dec 29th) are approaching. It's time for happiness & joy. I'd hate to give anyone I love reasons to be sad & worries, specially at this time.

Once again, I really am appreciate your prayers. In times like this, my faith in God sustains me, and your good thoughts & prayers provide me the much needed support, both mentally & physically.

Thank you!
Theresa

**cassiesmom** · 12-10-2007, 02:36 PM

I certainly will!

**Alysser** · 12-10-2007, 03:30 PM

{{{hugs}}}

I am sorry that such a nice time of year for you has to be ruined, but please don't let this hurt your happiness. It may just be a lump. Good luck!

**Christiansmommy** · 12-13-2007, 12:07 PM

Originally Posted by M&M's Mommy

Thanks for all your supports, good thoughts & prayers. I believe in the power of prayers (of course, I'll do all I can by going to the doctor, seeking treatment if needed, etc..) - but that God is the ultimate healer.

Once again, I really am appreciate your prayers. In times like this, my faith in God sustains me, and your good thoughts & prayers provide me the much needed support, both mentally & physically.

Thank you!
Theresa

Amen to those words! God is the ultimate healer!! " In times like these my faith in God sustains me"...that is sooo true too!! I am so happy to hear that your faith in God is giving you peace and comfort. You sound very strong and I am just so happy to read these great words. I am a Christian and feel exactly like you do! I have gone thru a similar situation and God was my strength, and I am able to praise Him for staying by me faithfully, as He will with you too. I have been praying off and on for you after I read this post, and I hope things have gone well. I will continue to pray for you. (((HUGS))) during these uncertain times. At least we know that the same God that holds your hand thru this, holds the future and we can rest in knowing that He is in control.

**Dorothy39** · 12-15-2007, 08:22 AM

M& M' Mommy~ We'll keep you in our Prayers, I'm Praying that your fear diminishes after reading all these positive replies and that your worries subside soon afterwards.

You can always count on PT!!!!! {{HUGS}}}

**M&M's Mommy** · 12-18-2007, 01:57 PM

Thanks for the outpouring suppots. They mean a lot to me.

I did tell my husband, and I feel better about it now that I have him to share my worries with

. The reason I hesitated to tell him was because about this same time last year, his mother was diagnose with breast cancer. She also found a lump which turned out to be malignant. She had to have to mastectomy & chemo... Thanks goodness her cancer is now in remission, but it did give everybody a scare, and changed a lots of things on its way.

Because of that, to my husband, having a lump is equal with having cancer... I now not only have to convince myself that the lump's probably benign, I have to convince hubby, too.

As for me, I'm doing fine. The way I see it, I have no choice but to wait until Dec 28th for my mammogram, but I do have a choice to be happy or unhappy from now until then, and I choose to be happy . Of course ever since I found the lump, I've been very worried, but everywhere I go, I hear joyful Christmas songs, bright & beautiful decorations, and I'm reminded that Advent is a time to be joyful, not sad - hopeful, not despair.. Therefore, when dark clouds loom over my head, I chase them away with prayers.

God is my strengh & my hope right now, as I realize there is nothing I can do, or undo that will change the outcome of things. I'll just have to wait to find out what He's planned for my life. Of course, I prayed that it won't be anything malignant - but I can't help but asking myself what I would do in case it would be. All I can do now is to prepare myself for the worst, so if it is, at least I'm prepared. If it's not, then I'll be the happiest person on the entire universe

Please continue to pray for me. Pretty please? I'm sure God hears our prayers.

**joycenalex** · 12-18-2007, 02:19 PM

of course we'll pray for you. PT-ers always go with each other. i am so glad you told your partner/helper and husband. he and you are going through this tough and scary time together, nad i'm glad you know he's strong enough for you to lean on him, as he could lean on you. (hugs)