Thanks for your support everyone. I didn't put up the decorations. I don't know if I will. The kids got to have fun decorating over a grandmas though with several of their cousins yesterday. So they didn't notice and still got to have fun.

I just can't wait for this month to be over and for the new year to come. Maybe then things will change and be much better. But sadly none of it is in my control so I just have to wait and see.
Nicole & Ronan