Thank you so much everyone for your thoughts. Nothing really will make things all "better" but knowing we have such a wonderful ammount of support makes the healing process so much easier. Physically, I'm feeling a lot better. I ended up having a major infection and was in ICU for a little while. Now I am at home, resting and recovering, trying to figure out what I'm going to end up doing with myself. Moving on is going to be difficult but with time I think I'll be able to live at least somewhat normally again. Will I ever be completely alright? At this point, it's really hard to tell but at least I know in my heart I'm not alone and that thought really keeps things in perspective.

I'm probibly not making a whole lot of sense but I had to reply and thank you all.