I read this thread when you first posted it and felt so moved by the conveyance of such personal feelings, yet didn't know how to express my appreciation for your sharing them. I've come back to this thread several times. I guess all I can do is say what is in my heart.

Those of us who are in the upper age brackets of this board have probably been down many a rough road. Even so, sometimes it feels like this latest one is steeper, rougher, and frought with more peril than we could ever attempt to handle.

I don't know if it helps to know that there are others out here scared silly about the future and how we are going to play the cards we are being dealt. But we certainly are here. We can personally relate to some of your situation and are equally intimidated by our own challenges which may differ. I will add you to those I say my humble prayers for and ask that you think of me as one of the ones who needs Divine intervention.