People say the pain lessens over time. I'm not so sure about that anymore. Sometimes it did for some loved ones i lost. Sometimes it's just that my brain forgets. So far for King it has been totally untrue. After the first month or so the pain hasn't got any less for me. I still randomly sob my eyes out and my nose gets soaked right off my face from being so mushy. I still randomly blurt out "I want King back." Other days my brain totally forgets he's not here and i ask where he is... and it hurts all over again as it washes back over me. (and it's been over a year now.)

Sometimes we love someone so deeply that it never stops hurting.

I've long since gotten over my terrier's death. I've long since been OK with my budgies gone... though i do sometimes get a bit lonely for feathered company. I miss my aunt and regret my father never let me spend more time with her. So on and so forth. One of my best friend's death still haunts me, but it is because he never received justice. King however... it is a loss more deep to me than anything i can describe.

Sometimes we love someone so deeply that it never stops hurting.

I see this being true for you with Sherman. It may not be comforting to hear that, but i hope that it is comforting to know that if you do feel that way that it's not crazy and others won't think less of you. That you are not alone in grieving deeply.