I'm getting really scared here. I called Donna (Moosmom) to see if her friend still was interested in Noah...but that doesn't help us in the "now".

I'm even considering putting him to sleep if that is the best option. How horrible is that??? I mean, if I can't find anywhere that will take him (family, friends, anyone) and I can't keep him (now), the next obvious step would be shelters, where he'd be terrified out of his mind. I couldn't do that to him. How cruel.

I don't want to do ANY of this to him, I just want him happy and in a good place...no fear, just with a home and with someone who loves him more than anything, like I do.

Ugh. I hate David for doing this all the sudden. If he KNOWS he needs to be out, why can't he tell me at least give me a day or two notice, not a few hours!!! What a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!

This just all seems like such a waste that I've held onto all of my babies for over a year and at the last part of this torturous HELL, I'm about to loose my heart-kitty. Why is life so cruel??