I know what you are going through. just last saturday we had to put our sweet girl to sleep. She had cancer she fought it for almost two years. I cry every day. I Know that she is in Heaven and I Know she is not suffering anymore. She is their with all the other dogs and cats they will met your baby and he will be with all of them. In time God will heal your heart as he will heal mine. God Bless you and your husband.