I'm sorry you're feeling down, MOFF. I know what it's like to loose your closest family, I have lost both my parents. The pain gets lesser as the years go by, but some days I really miss them, they were good people! I think it was a comfort that I were there for them until the end. My dad had his sense of humour intact and used to say: The day I start drinking tea and stop smoking, I'm really sick and will probably die! My mom turned out to be a lot stronger in her last months than I had expected.

As you know, I lost John two years ago, and that is still very real. I miss him terribly - I can't express how much. I'm glad that you and other PTalkers got to know a little bit of him, and liked him. That comforts me too in some way. He is only 3-4 min. away from where I live and I choose to believe he's with me in spirit, and I go to visit quite often.

(((((hugs))))) ...... and cheer up!