Thanks everyone! I'm better today. I know he really left 4 years before he really died. When my step mom put him in the nursing home, was when he really started leaving. Looking back at how he hated being in that place and how he hated being the way he was, I know he's happier now. He's probably fishing with all my kin there!!!

I think what did me in this year is this is the first year I haven't been able to get to the cemetery to put flowers on his grave. Having no car really really stinks!!!

I will make it out there for Memorial Day one way or the other!!!