Tomorrow morning is THE court date for my daughter.

[catnapper]

Oh Kim..... I'm just now catching up on this whole sordid chapter in the AmyBeth saga. I don't even know what to say! Just know I'm thinking of you and am here if you need a sholder to cry on. (((hugs)))

[rg_girlca]

Kim, just wanted to let you know that you are still in my thoughts and in my prayers.

One day at a time dear Kim, one day at a time.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

[carole]

kim reading your post was one of the saddest i have read on PT for a while, it really hits home, when you are a mother yourself, you understand the complete heartache and despair you are feeling right now,I can only imagine how stressful this is for you, and I must say I admire your courage, you are indeed a very strong woman, great to see you wake up and feel like you can carry on another day, because i am sure there have been days where you felt you could no longer do just that.

Just want you to know i am here for you too, and that my heart goes out to you and your family through all this,i hope with all my heart Amy beth can sort herself out and soon and you can feel true happiness again,hang on in there, you are a loving, caring person.who has had to endure more than anyone should need to,I hope you will never feel that you are alone , and that you are burdening anyone here on PT, that is so far from the truth,please always stop by and unload your stresses,we are all family here and only too willingly to offer you support and help that you may need from time to time, bless you and your family.

[jennielynn1970]

My ex-husband ruined what little self-esteem I had when he drug me through court over our two daughters. He tormented and berated me for years and still hasn't stopped. I cannot throw myself into the fire for persecution any more. I had some very self-destructive thoughts on the way home from that courtroom today. Thank God for my loving husband and my daughter Amanda, who are the two people on this Earth who still make my life feel worth living.

I just wanted to give you some "words of wisdom" that someone had passed on to me... I often blamed my ex that I lived with and was verbally and physically abused by for the time I was with him.

I have the following quote posted in many places, and also at work, because even there, there are certain people you work with that just try to bring you down.

Eleanor Roosevelt was an amazing woman, and I love this quote:
No one can make you feel inferior without your permission.

It's something to remember... You need to believe in yourself. You have to be your own cheerleader, and know that you are a wonderful person and have all the potential in the world. Don't let others make you feel like crap. Know that the ones that do do that, are the ones who feel crappy about themselves to begin with and the old saying "misery loves company." It is so true.

Be good to yourself. Don't be an enabler to your daughter. She's preying on your "motherly instincts", and is using your sentiments for her own well-being without any thought of how she is slowly destroying you. I know it is hard, but you have to look after yourself at this point. She's an adult now, and is responsible for her own actions and cannot be allowed to blame anyone else, or make others feel responsible for her. That is extremely manipulative. Shame on her for doing that to her mother. It also doesn't sound like Denise has the best interests of the child at heart either. Another spiteful person doing something to make others feel inadequate. I'm sure she'll be easy on her son and let him see Jenna when he wants. As horrible as it sounds, a foster placement might be the best thing for Jenna at this point.

[kimlovescats]

Thank you Kim and Lorraine!

Carole, I appreciate your understanding and support!

Jenn, thank you for the reminders ... I am often my own worst enemy!

[ramanth]

Jenn, thank you for the reminders ... I am often my own worst enemy!

Aren't we all?

*HUGS*

[Logan]

Kim, I was checking in to see how you were doing, and I'm glad to see that you are on the right track! Bless your heart. It is so easy to get down and out, especially given all that you have dealt with lately. Plus, if your husband is working when you go to bed at night, I can imagine that your mind races and it is hard to relax at all.

You take care of Kim, Amanda and hubby, and be available and alert to Jenna's needs, when and where you can. I think that is all you can do.

I heard a really great sermon last night at our Lenten service. He spoke on "sin" , but most of all forgiveness. And forgiveness comes in all forms and it is between you and your Lord. He also said, and I agree with this, totally, that forgiving doesn't always mean that everything is mended, just that you have found some peace in your heart and with God, and you are able to move forward. That was a comfort to me. If I can get him to send me a copy of his sermon, I'll send it to you.

Much love to you. May each day get a little better for you. I know that with the love of your husband and daughter, you will get better every day.

[kimlovescats]

Kim, I was checking in to see how you were doing, and I'm glad to see that you are on the right track! Bless your heart. It is so easy to get down and out, especially given all that you have dealt with lately. Plus, if your husband is working when you go to bed at night, I can imagine that your mind races and it is hard to relax at all.

You take care of Kim, Amanda and hubby, and be available and alert to Jenna's needs, when and where you can. I think that is all you can do.

I heard a really great sermon last night at our Lenten service. He spoke on "sin" , but most of all forgiveness. And forgiveness comes in all forms and it is between you and your Lord. He also said, and I agree with this, totally, that forgiving doesn't always mean that everything is mended, just that you have found some peace in your heart and with God, and you are able to move forward. That was a comfort to me. If I can get him to send me a copy of his sermon, I'll send it to you.

Much love to you. May each day get a little better for you. I know that with the love of your husband and daughter, you will get better every day.

Thank you so much, Logan! One thing I really miss is being in a church home. It's just so hard getting back in the routine after being "out of it" for so long. Good news though, hubby is getting to go to DAY SHIFT in about another week and a half! He has been on Night Shift for TWELVE years now! YES, I AM SO EXCITED!!!! Getting into a normal routine will help us get back to church on Sunday too!

HUGS, Logan!
Kim

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Dearest Kim,
I am so sorry I didn't see this thread when you started it. I have had surgery and almost sleep the days away....
I feel so sorry for you and your hubby, it is almost to much to take.....

[kimlovescats]

Dearest Kim,
I am so sorry I didn't see this thread when you started it. I have had surgery and almost sleep the days away....
I feel so sorry for you and your hubby, it is almost to much to take.....

Sweet Lut,

Don't EVEN think you should "apologize" for not posting! I know you have been very ill!

HUGS,
Kim