Quote Originally Posted by kallisto4529
Yesterday was a rough day for mommy, I finally moved your stuff from where it has lain the last 4 months and i finally threw out all those medicines you were taking, off and on the last several months we still had you here with us. Part of it was like loosing you all over again, I knew it had to be done but my heart did not want to let it go. Ginger, I never doubt that daddy and I did the right thing for you, and that we took care of you as well as we possibly could have, and I know your Dr did everything that he could possibly do for you, but sometimes that just does not help, it doesnt help on the days that mommy misses you and Mousse so bad that I feel like I am going nuts, it does not replace this empty spot inside me that just never seems to go away. I loved each of you differently but never doubt it was just as strong for you both. Mommy has a birthday coming up this month and I dont even care about it, it will not be the same anyway and it puts me that much closer to june when it would have been your birthday. I know for some people they just dont understand but you and bubby were my kids, God did not put it in the cards for mommy to have human kids, but he sure did put it in the cards for me to have furkids, and to love them as if they were my own and to care for them and nurture them, and that is what i did with you and bubby, and now there is an empty hole where the two of you filled it up. I pray that both of you understand when the day comes and mommy gets another furkid, but please dont ever think it will ever replace you or mousse, never never could it.
Run fast and play hard at the Bridge my angel's, and always remember mommy loves you more than anything.
I am sorry that you are still in pain. This post describes exactly how I feel. I had to put my best kitty friend, Maxie, to sleep less than 2 weeks ago. A day hasn't gone by that I haven't cried for him. Last night I cried and cried and begged for him to come back. I went on vacation last week to Florida. Before Maxie died I was afraid to fly. But after Maxie died, I didn't care whether the plane crashed or not. I thought if it crashed, at least I would be with my Maxie.

I wish our pets could stay with us forever. And I hope someday our hearts won't hurt so badly. Take care.