My dad will be gone 2 years in May, so I can definitely relate to how you're feeling.

I just try to remember that my dad is no longer in pain. He no longer has to deal with whatever agony he was in. He's free now. That helps me. I don't know how your dad was taken from you, but hopefully, thinking of it that way will help you too.

It always helps me to talk about the old times with my dad too. Bring up goofy things that we did together, things he used to say and do. Laughter through tears is a wonderful emotion.

Hugs to you and your family.