Wow, long post..but I read it all because I do care even though you don't know me. I feel very bad that you are going through this. I know what it feels like when you are confused about a bestfriend, I've been there. And yes, if she is your true friend then she should caring and listening to you and hugging you as much as you need it, the same with your husband. He should be comforting you as much as you need. If I was there I would definately hug you for as long as you needed it, I would let you cry on my shoulder and vent. Then after you feel okay enough, I would ask you what your favorite thing is and I would take you to it, or show you it or bake your favorite food. I would bake cookies too. Cookies can always bring a smile to someone's face, chocolate cookies that is lol.

Anyways I know all I have said matters and doesn't matter at the same time because I'm not there and I can't do all that, but I wish I could.

All I can really say to try and be of any help, is that the reason to living is for love. There is so much love out there, and sometimes you don't find that full-filling love for awhile, and sometimes it feels like love doesn't exist. But a great love does exist. Live your life to your fullest and love alot. It sounds like you have a great future, think about your future and how great and happy it will be.

No matter what hardships you are going through right now, just know that there are lots of people out there that do love you and do care very much and I wish only that you will find happiness very soon.

(((((((((ONE GREAT BIG HUG FOR YOUR HAPPINESS!!)))))))))))))