Confused and mostly alone

[Kalei]

Wow, long post..but I read it all because I do care even though you don't know me. I feel very bad that you are going through this. I know what it feels like when you are confused about a bestfriend, I've been there. And yes, if she is your true friend then she should caring and listening to you and hugging you as much as you need it, the same with your husband. He should be comforting you as much as you need. If I was there I would definately hug you for as long as you needed it, I would let you cry on my shoulder and vent. Then after you feel okay enough, I would ask you what your favorite thing is and I would take you to it, or show you it or bake your favorite food. I would bake cookies too. Cookies can always bring a smile to someone's face, chocolate cookies that is lol.

Anyways I know all I have said matters and doesn't matter at the same time because I'm not there and I can't do all that, but I wish I could.

All I can really say to try and be of any help, is that the reason to living is for love. There is so much love out there, and sometimes you don't find that full-filling love for awhile, and sometimes it feels like love doesn't exist. But a great love does exist. Live your life to your fullest and love alot. It sounds like you have a great future, think about your future and how great and happy it will be.

No matter what hardships you are going through right now, just know that there are lots of people out there that do love you and do care very much and I wish only that you will find happiness very soon.

(((((((((ONE GREAT BIG HUG FOR YOUR HAPPINESS!!)))))))))))))

[carole]

Sweetie, i think you need to know there are people who genuinely care about you,i do for one and as you can see by your replies we really do understand how you are feeling, i agree your friend should be there for you in your time of need as well, that is what real friendship is all about, but sometimes people are so caught up in their own problems ,they just don't have anything left to give.

I really feel for you in your struggle in your life right now, and it sounds like you are overwhelmed by it all, I can only tell you that hopefully in time things will look better, you are in the grieving process right now, and you need to beable to do just that.

I want you to know that I am always here if you need a shoulder to cry on, i know i live very far away, and it is not quite the same,but i do want to offer you any emotional support that i can, so please feel free to pm if you feel the need.

Please take care of yourself,put yourself first for once, you are a very kind and loving person, who obviously puts others needs before your own, maybe now it is ME time,giant HUGS to you and i sure hope you feel somewhat better within yourself soon,anything i can do ,just let me know ok.

[DrKym]

I read through the whole post also.
I am sorry to hear of anyone going through so much turmoil and heartache, our family will light a candle for your lost child, and for you and your husband. I wish there was more to be said to help you with your grieving, but it is difficult to grieve, and because of that it seems to be more difficult to help a friend while they are grieving. I feel a lot of friends and family too, don't know what to say or how to help so they withdraw instead.

Our prayers, and also our altar to send you healing and happiness energy.

the Goodnows.

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through some rough times right now. I hope that things start getting better for you. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))

[DJFyrewolf36]

Thank you all so much for the wonderful replies! Knowing people care and that I am not alone is a great comfort to me. I've been doing a lot of praying today, and I believe I have come to terms with a lot of things but it still is hard.

One day at a time, right? God always has a plan!

Again thank you so much for listening to me vent, venting it out helped a great deal.

a great big *HUG* to all of you!

[Catty1]

Hey - I, for one, would love to read a thread about the good things happening to you in music!

[DJFyrewolf36]

Hey - I, for one, would love to read a thread about the good things happening to you in music!

Thanks I'm a DJ (hence my username lol) and I just put out a couple of demo mixes online. The responses so far have been really positive, and a couple of people have been hinting at possible gigs they want me to play. It's wierd, I was mixing a little bit more mainstream beats and wasn't getting much of anywhere, then I started to mix things that people don't hear a lot of and now people can't get enough. I'll be sure to keep everyone updated on that, as dispite all the negatives of late, music keeps me in a positive frame of mind.

I just stopped in to update...the local newspaper just put out a story about the accident involving my friend:

http://www.nevadaappeal.com/article/...NEWS/102250097

Its so wierd having someone you know be front page news...especially like this. I wish I knew what I was feeling but I really don't